Hi everyone I am back today with a different type of post then my usual type but I thought it would be fun to do something a little different! This is not my idea, I got the inspiration to do if from the blogger The Honeybee, do you guys follow her?? I have for so long now and she is one of my absolute faves!! Her style is amazing and she has the sweetest fam :) if you don't follow her you should!
She does life lately posts via her camera roll and I always enjoy reading them so I thought I would do one as a fun way to talk about my life lately in a casual way.
A lot of people have said this that instagram is a highlight reel and it doesn't always depict all of someones life. I believe this to be true I know personally how I post on my instagram is how I want people to perceive my life and how I want to depict it. But life isn't always as pretty and wonderful as insta makes it seem. Now I am not saying I don't absolutely love taking pretty photos of my outfits and food and coffee but those images don't depict all of the aspects of my life. I am also not saying my life isn't wonderful because it absolutely is I am truly blessed for all I have but my life lately specifically this summer has been quite rough for me.
I have been doing a lot of things beyond my blog and insta. I completed a summer long internship for my university that was 40 hours a week, I started my blog and instagram and I took two additional classes for school and I have been trying to come to terms with the fact that my boyfriend of almost 5 years is leaving to go to school out of state at the end of august. With the workload and stress has come an incredible amount of anxiety. I already suffer from it and this summer has made it quite a bit worse. Somedays it has felt like all I would do is manage it. It has also led to lack creativity and inspiration and made me feel quite down. Which was hard because I consider myself a very creative person.
I understand that people go through much tougher situations and times then me so I don't mean to sound like I am asking for sympathy but this summer has been a struggle. Have you ever felt like you were just being pulled into too many directions? Well thats how I have felt this summer and I have never wanted to slow down time more in my life everything seems to be flying by.
Its just hard to believe I start school on Monday and next Saturday I have to somehow say goodbye to my bf. Brb while I pick up all the pieces of my heart. The thought of learning how to be apart from my man that I have had by my side for almost a half of a decade hurts my heart more than I can even say. We both finish school around the same time so I know him being away in a different state is only temporary but boy do I wish I could keep him here more than anything. One of the only things that has helped with great sadness I feel about it is really being present when I am with him so I cherish the moments we have left before he leaves. I am also trying to take everything day by day because if I think about how soon he leaves I kind of become a puddle of tears.
I betcha didn't think all of this could be happening behind the insta and blog posts did yah?? Well I am here to tell you that every account on instagram there is a real person behind it with real things they are trying to deal with, sometimes I think its easy to forget that. Sorry for such a long post but I thought I would open up a bit.