I Hope you are all having a wonderful day!! I wanted to share with you all an update my journey to wellness and about how I am doing with the goals I set for myself at the beginning of this year.
The first week of January was great! I achieved many of my goals I set for myself. I started January so proud and excited of all the things I had already done. I cut my hair and let go of my security blanket. I exercised. I meditated. I cooked twice by myself. I posted on my blog to name a few so you get an idea of my goals. They are not all big and grand. They are manageable and very achievable so that I can actually succeed and work through them. I have noticed in past years when I make huge over arching goals for myself I drop them in a few weeks and don’t follow through so I decided to do it different this year.
Now onto the second week of January. It was nothing like the first and it shook me and made me almost walk away completely from my goals and definitely wanting to discuss them. It’s hard for me to type that actually but I am to maybe shed light in areas people don’t love talking about. Those dark hard moments that you go through and don’t want to share with anyone. As you know or maybe don’t if you are new to my blog I have a chronic illness. I have vertiginous migraine that I have no way gotten on top of yet and immensely suffer from. So last week I was leveled by horrific crushing migraines every single day. I ended up doing one goal of mine. I didn’t do any of the things I set for myself. I couldn’t. I felt like I am just trying to survive here and swim to the surface but can’t. Now I am not asking for sympathy as i always say. I truly am not asking for it but I hope that my vulnerability and sharing helps in some way. I was so ashamed I didn’t do any of my goals and many times said to myself why would you put this much pressure on yourself to do them. You aren’t going to succeed. Clearly you are failing and its only the second damn week. I really go into my head and almost gave in to those malicious thoughts and voice telling me I am going to fail even before I had really begun. But in a moment of clarity I thought to myself you know what no. I am not someone that gives up that easy. I am glad I had a week like this one because it taught me that this journey of wellness and bettering myself isn’t going to be smooth sailing or without hard times. Now I knew eventually I’d run into weeks like last weeks because of my illness I just didn’t expect it to be so soon. But in the end like I said it taught to find my grit again and preserve. To continue forward into the unknown because at the end of the day I want these achieve the things I set out for myself and I am worth it.
Now onto week three of January. This week was thank heavens not as hard. I started to feel better again. I made sure because I felt better to really get on my goals.
I am writing this post for you all if you are needing reminding that not every week you are going to kick ass and be a the boss women you are and have set yourself up to be. That they’ll be times where you can’t make things happen and can’t get to everything you wanted to. But preserve like I did and still have too. Keep going even if that means you just do one goal or all of them. What you are doing for yourself and what I am doing for myself is enough as long as you are giving it your best. For me the 1st week of January was awesome I gave it my all and the universe hugged me back in return for my efforts. But the second week my all was achieving one minute goal and that was okay too.
I believe in you.