I am back today with another #coffeeshopthoughts post for you all. This post as you can see from the title will be about changing course, or path, or direction. These are all the same just different ways of saying it. I found that even though we think we choose the direction we are headed in life or our path we don't most times.
I am a big quote person, I always have been. I feel that sometimes when you stumble upon a quote it's someone saying what you couldn't find the right words for. I love this quote for many reasons but the part I am going to talk about today is all this quote encompasses.
Changing direction or course in your life can be very big or very small I've learned. It can be as big as working many years in a career and deciding to completely stop doing that and starting in a new field. It can also be as small as thinking you want to share one type of content and instead wanting to share another. Changing direction can be many many things.
I'll use myself as example about a change in direction I am going to take and give you some back round and explanation.
Some of you might know that I created a health instagram about 2 months ago now. I wanted to share more into my journey of finding wellness again with a debilitating illness. I thought by separating my instagram's I could share all the kind of content I wanted and it wouldn't get to so cluttered in just one. I had full faith that was the direction I wanted to go. I committed to creating that instagram and content. I went full steam ahead and at first I was happy. Then about a month in of neglecting my other more "fashion or lifestyle" instagram I realized I am not happy with the direction I've committed myself too.
That being said, i've decided I am going to delete my health instagram. I have been reflecting on this for awhile now and allowing myself the opportunity to change "course" or "direction" again. I think too often myself included don't allow ourselves to do this. That there is some kind of shame associated with starting and stopping something. Or trying something we thought we'd be really interested in and then after doing it realizing you are not. Now I am not saying it's okay to start a million different things and walk away from each because it's not suiting you in that moment. That is a different thing than what I am talking about.
Now that I've shared the decision I am making to delete my health page I might as well give you a reason. I found the more I spent time on that instagram the more I was identifying myself as a "sick person". I know I am more than this and I have more to share than that one part of me. I struggled for a long time with my identity after being diagnosed because people who also have chronic illnesses can attest to this that it can swallow you up whole. It can become all that you are, all that you think about, all you want others to see of you because you are suffering. I am happy to grown out of that. That might come off offensive to some people but for me I knew I had to grow out of it because I couldn't live with that identity. This is why I am deciding to delete it because I started to realize I was slipping into those mentalities again. Which was not healthy and not what I wanted out of creating that page.
I wanted to share this personal example with you all so you know I go through these things too. If you are unhappy with a direction you decided to go in or have found it's not as interesting as you thought it would be that is okay. Reflect and allow yourself to change if that's what you feel is best. You deserve to be happy.
Happy Sunday cuties,